My theory about sleep is that when you don’t have enough energy and subjects to think upon, you fall asleep. Simply, if you do not give your brain the rest it needs and you keep it working while you’re awake or even when you sleep, you’ll be exhausted both ways.
And sometimes you are so awake as in, you keep thinking about things around and about that you find sleep hard. At once you want to achieve so much and you want so much to be done so quickly that you just want it to go your way right away.
This happens with me alot and more so lately. I want to get somewhere in life. The more ups and downs I face, each time I think yes I am definitely right thinking that life can not be like it is. That there has to be a goal that i need to achieve. I need to study and grow my knowledge and have some skill, some talent, something to which i can turn to if i feel like. That if god forbid, there comes a bad time in my life I am able to hold my self up through it. No. It is not about facing bad times in life, but i want to be something someone better. I want to be educated. I crave the knowledge, the empowerment that women can get through being educated. Not that i am a total waste right now. No, i do have sense of right and wrong And awareness also but I need more. It’s like I can’t explain. It’s like a rebellion within my own self. Of proving myself not to anybody but me myself. Of being able to be myself, follow my dreams and be able to tell myself that I knew that I had the capability. Of being a better, more intellectual person than I am today.